~ The Life And Times From The Inner Spirit Of ................................. "Rolling Thunder"

~ Depression & Faith ~
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Depression & Faith

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You know we wonder sometimes what is faith. Hope in things we believe in, in our fellow man, fellow mankind, faith in a Spirit or a God. We go in prayer sometimes and we ask for help for these friends, for these loved ones, we ask for this pet to get well and not have a broken leg or head. So many times we think of everyone else in their difficulties. We consider if we need help or if we fall down not physically but spiritually, emotionally, we fall down and we do not ever put out our hand, we say we are tough, we will pick our self up. We do not want to seem weak or vulnerable. Sometimes life here on Mother Earth, Turtle Island, not so perfect, not so sweet, not so happy. The modern term for that situation where things do not go quite the way that we would be happy with, we get what we call depressed. Our guts cry lots of tears, our insides seem to be ripped to pieces because this cannot make this puzzle fit together, frustration of the mind. We think so hard on how we are going to make this or that work. We get frustrated, our bodies get so weak like we have been in a war, been to combat with the enemy, where all this time the enemy most generally is our self. There are times granted that it is not really an enemy, it is what the residents here on Mother Earth refer to as life. This situation that we are living in and we have to contend with, like nothing is given to us, we have to as they say in the modern world make our own bed to sleep in, maybe, maybe they do not refer to it as a bed, a place made of sticks and stone, to lay down our Earthly Temple of flesh and bone but the bed to lay down our Soul and Spirit, some kind of satisfaction in this life that we have to contend with while we are existing here on Turtle Island but the problem is when this Soul and Spirit goes into this Earthly Temple of Grandfathers and Heavenly Council for its stay here on Mother Earth, no one gives us instructions all written out on how we supposed to feed these ones maybe that we are responsible for. We came by these pets, these dogs, these cats maybe a horse or a chicken and we really, really want this pet because maybe we lonely, maybe we need some company that we can not find another human to be company with, so we pick up this pet, along with the pet comes responsibility, we have to feed him and if this friend gets sick we have to fix him and make him well.

Same way we have little babies, little offspring from our loins or from our womb, sometime by accident, sometime not by purpose, sometime by purpose but you do not ever, do not ever realize how much responsibility, how much problem in life really is just to maintain for your self. So we get in an area of depression, we feel we have no light at the end of the tunnel, we look at tomorrow and we do not see anything, we look at yesterday and we see no accomplishments, we see failure, we look at it today and sometimes we do not even want to look at today, today maybe start out in the mud, still in the quicksand, in the mud so slick you can not even get a foothold, you fall down on your face and you try and it seems like the harder you try the more you slip backwards. What to do, what to do with,do we have a future, like will there be a tomorrow, like this depression, all we want to do is to sit around and weep, no faith in our self, makes no difference how much faith you have in Grandfather, makes no difference how much faith you have in the Council, all these other Spirits in these Earthly Temples walking around next to us, all of these animal people, bird people, everybody seem to be doing absolutely wonderful but us. We are not a happy Temple, no faith. We have to work at this faith, we have to get our light force strength all together and even if we are a little proud and we think that light force Spirits have better things to do than come to our side and come to our aid so we are going to take care of this situation all by our self although there are dark Spirits out there that will come to your aid, fire in the bottle or white line powder, something to roll up in a paper or smoke in a pipe, it will make you feel good but problem still in your heart, problem still on your mind, problem still right there at your doorstep to your heart, to your Soul and Spirit. You want to come in the door to a happy home, you got to step over this burden, what to do, we will see how tough you are if you light force Spirit. We always say hey, we will go to Grandfather, we will go to Council. If somebody sick, if somebody have a problem we will go to their aid, we all gather hands, all gather forces, we go and make them happy or make them well and draw the dark force lance from their chest, from their heart, we walk around with our head down, we walk from sun up to sun set, from one moon to the next moon, do not know what to do, what to do, sometimes seems like there is no fixing this situation.

Granted no easy cure for this, seems like a cancer or seems like this big boulder in the middle of the path as we are trying to go down the good path, go down to Grandfathers straight road, it seems like every step a mud hole, every way we look is a broken tree or a big boulder coming down to crash or crush our Earthly Temple but the Earthly Temple is not of that much importance, it is the crushing of the mind, the Soul and the Spirit, that depression, so we have to have faith in our self, also we have to call up the faith in fellow mankind, the other occupants in this Earthly Village. We sometimes, we need to go to Grandfather and hold out our hand and say please Grandfather, I need your help, I need to come sit on your lap for a little while and weep. You hold out your hand to Grandfather and Grandfather take you in his loving arms and turns the problem over to the Council and some other light force Spirits here on Turtle Island. One hand out to Grandfather, the other hand we reach out to fellow mankind. Faith in one another, the knowledge that there is a tomorrow and that tomorrow will be better than today and when tomorrow becomes yesterday, the tomorrow that replaces that day which at that time will be today maybe not so much depression. You know that if you hold your hand out to Grandfather, Grandfather and the Council will take your hand and they will wrap you up and keep you warm and safe but when you reach out for the world, the world around you makes you very vulnerable because sometimes black Spirits take advantage of weak light Spirit, not weak physically maybe but weak at the time because at one time we all need assistance, we all need a hand up or like little children at play, a boost, we need a boost up to the next step or a boost up over this rock, we need to throw some leaves or branches over this mud hole maybe we can not gather enough material by our self. Yes, sometimes it is very hard to go to another human because so many humans including our self think we are so tough, we are tough and we do not need help but try once in a while to reach out to other Spirit people. We Spirit people we look at another Earthly Temple and we sometimes, we say O'SiYu, what is your problem today, hello, I can see that you are crying inside and do not say "Nothing"

Do not be so tough, do not take a knife and rip your guts out.