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There are times when we think we make our own decisions. Many moons ago I was allowed to come to the mountains and to live in the forest and have the animal creatures, the birds of the air and the fish of the waters as my friends, as my brothers and sisters. I lived among them and I was happy. Grandfather provided me after several months, seemingly like an eternity of trials, tribulations and tests to see if I was worthy of living in such a beautiful, beautiful surrounding as his mountains next to his waters rushing to the ocean. Among the animal people who are his true people and who are my true people. He provided me a place to live, I was very happy, my Spirit was happy, my soul satisfied, my heart contented. Then one day I am down in a large city away from my brothers and sisters of the forest, away from my home in the mountains and I think to myself, what am I doing here, what have you done. You have let Grandfather down, you have let the Holy Men, the Medicine Men and the Great Warriors who have gone before you, you have disappointed them. What are you doing in this world of civilization and cannibalism among these savage, savage human beings. What are you doing and I said to myself, I do not know. There is a lot of loneliness in the forest and in the mountains but there is a lot of companionship and I said to myself to satisfy my mind, you are lonely, you came to the city to have your loneliness fulfilled and find happiness, it was an answer for the time. The stay in the city became moon after moon after moon and I prayed to the Council. I got on bended knees and I asked Grandfather and the Council what was my purpose, give me a sign. Then I went to the Council because of several wonderful things happening to me with the Blessing but I had not found happiness. I had not found contentment, I had not satisfaction, I was still in the valley with the humans. Then one day Grandfather comes to me and says, Two Feathers you have completed the duties of which I brought you to the valley with the humans, you have concluded your duties, you have done all that you can to talk to these Indian people, these non Indian people, people of your color, people of your Spirit, people of your beliefs. You have talked to these people and you have told them with your voice and the message from me how to survive.

Grandfather says to me, Two Feathers you have done everything you possibly could do, you have done well so rewarding you for a job well done for myself and for the Heavenly Council, the Medicine Men, the Holy Men and the Great Warriors who have gone before you. Two Feathers you may go back to the mountains, you may go back to the forest, you may go back with your friends, your brothers and sisters, the creatures that walk beside you, the creatures that walk nocturnally and your brothers and sisters will say, "Welcome Home Tali",welcome TaLi UGiDaTli. Two Feathers you belong in the forest, Two Feathers you belong by the water TaLi. Grandfather allowed me to come back to the mountains and to the forest with my people, my true people. He has provided me a very beautiful place,he has provided me a place by beautiful rushing waters by wonderful sounding waterfalls and cascades. He has provided near my abode several large beautiful pools of water. The forest is thick, the forest reaching its tips at the top into the Heavenly Council, into the Heavenly Lodge, into the Heavens. My people pass my abode and say Welcome TaLi, Welcome Home. We knew that you would come home, we knew that you would come home to or be with us, as we said before you did not leave us in our dens, our lairs. You did not leave us in our nests, you had a job to do, you had a task to perform for Grandfather. We knew that when you would come up to visit, that is why we would say what we said to you, TaLi and we as the creatures of the forest go to Grandfather and say Thank You for returning our brother to us, not only a brother but a friend.

The creatures have gone to Grandfather, I am coming to Grandfather. I have gone to Grandfather and I have talked with Grandfather and we all say Thank You, we all say thank you, Grandfather. We smell the pine, we smell the cedar, we listen to the water rushing downward, we listen to the creatures of the forest one and all. We watch the birds in the air, we see the fish in the water and we are thankful to be home. We never ever thought we would see our home again but we are home and here is where we will stay. Grandfather has provided living conditions that are very, very acceptable, they are very comfortable. I have been tested many, many moons ago and when what happened, happened I should have known that it was not another test and it was not my decision, that it was a task to be performed for Grandfather, for Grandfather and the Council. I do not question anymore, this Indian does not question anything that is given to him for a task, given to him for his duties and I know in my heart and in my Soul and in my Spirit, in my mind that when Grandfather wants something that you should feel it. I now have been through all the commotion and all the confusion of trying to figure out why I did what I did whereas as if I would have just done it then there would have not been any of that problem, no, no problem whatsoever. So now I am back home, I am back in the forest and in the mountains with my people. I have all my Indian things up and laid out and I look at them daily and I live among the claws of the hawk, the claws of the great horned owl, the feathers of the eagle, the bones of the deer and the coyote. The pelts of the different creatures of my brothers and sisters that have come to me one way or another, they grace my abode, I sleep well, I am at peace. I look forward to remaining in the forest for the rest of my conscious life here on Earth.

Upon returning, upon returning to this area that Grandfather and the Council have placed me in before, all of my brothers and sisters and all of my friends, the human friends, the animal friends even newcomers to the forest, to the mountains, both of the animal world and of the human world, welcomed me home as if I had never been gone. This is a very good feeling as if my body went to the valley, my mind went to the valley to do this task for Grandfather and the Council. My Spirit remained here in the forest, my Soul remained here in the mountains. I have always, always had my home in my heart. I knew that there would be a time for my return, I did not know when, I did not know if ever physically if I would return. I know physically that I would come up from time to time to visit the creatures and the critters of the forest, the fish of the sea, the birds of the air and we would speak and they knew that I was not home but only visiting for whatever time that I had to visit with my friends, my people. I had no idea how long the task would take, I had no idea but I kept the faith, I kept my spiritualism. I kept within my heart, my mind, my Soul and my Spirit that I would return someday. They say in legend, the Old Warrior always goes home to die.

I do not plan to cross over, I do not plan to go over to the other side in the near future but I am home. When the time comes then I am ready, I am at peace with my mind, my heart, my Soul, my Spirit even my Earthly abode, my body is at peace and contented. I feel I did the Heavenly Council a good job in the valley with the humans. I feel that I got the message from Grandfather across to many, many human people. As I come back to the mountains, the forest, the animal people treat me, my true people treat me as if I did a good job and that my reward for a job well done was that Grandfather brought me home. Maybe someday Grandfather will have another task for me but I would prefer that it be in my home in the mountains and in the forest with my brothers and sisters, the creatures of the forest but if it is not they will all understand and this is the way we have to do as we go through life, that when we are handed a task by Grandfather that we handle that task to the best of our human ability, to the best of our spiritual ability. We put our mind forth to take care of business, the business at hand whether it be spiritual or whether it be earthly. Whatever category the duty or the job for Grandfather happens to be within whatever area. This is the way we must go through life.

Yes, this was a story of my situation for the last many, many, many moons but this is not a selfish story. This is a story of life, everyone's life, of people living either in a Spirit World or the Human World. We all have tasks to perform, whenever we are asked to perform such a task irregardless we need to perform that task to the best of our ability, spiritually, mentally, with our soul, with our heart, our bodies. Our main reason for being a Spirit and having a Spirit and that is to keep the Council, the Medicine Men, the Holy Men, the Great Warriors who have gone before us and Grandfather, contented and satisfied and happy. As we go through all of our time as a Spirit knowing that we belong to Grandfather, Grandfather can not do all the duties himself, too many children. Grandfather gives us a chore, a task, a duty, a job, do not question the task that has been given to you to do. I have found that out, within myself and I am satisfied not only to be home but I am satisfied that I have done Grandfather and the Heavenly Council a good job, so I will relax in my forest and in my mountains with my people until such time that Grandfather and the Heavenly Council call me up, call me up for another job to do, task, duty or if I have performed my last task to be content and be allowed to relax until I am called to the other side and to sit in the Heavenly Council.

Thank you Grandfather, thank you Grandfather for not only trusting me with a task but for bringing me home. This is my thank you to Grandfather and the Heavenly Council.