~ The Life And Times From The Inner Spirit Of ................................. "Rolling Thunder"

~ The Blessing ~
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The Blessing

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I am Tali, with the Blessing in my heart, mind, body, soul and spirit. I feel there is an answer to my prayer. Several months ago I walked into a fast food restaurant. On the wall hung a picture of which I was drawn to like a magnet. I had to place my hand on that picture and bow my head in reverence for a few seconds. This picture was what in my mind and in my spirit is what the Great Spirit would appear if he came down in human form, a form of this earth. I walked away from the picture and ordered my meal. I sat down inside the restaurant and began eating my meal. I could not take my eyes off the picture, I could not take the picture from my mind. When I had finished my meal and was ready to leave I had to again approach the picture with my vision of the Great Spirit in the Heavenly Lodge residing over the Heavenly Council. I had to again touch the picture with my hand and bow my head in reverence. This went on almost daily when I entered and when I exited that restaurant. After a while I approached the owner/manager of that particular restaurant and I asked the individual if he was Spiritual, if he was a religious person because I wanted him to understand my feeling toward that picture. He said that he had observed my actions towards the picture and he responded toward my question in a very affirmative manner, that he was very Spiritual and he was very religious, that he was of the Christian faith and that he was a true born again Christian. I explained to him what that picture meant to me. This has been several months, several months ago. After awhile I asked him if a price could be put on that picture, that I had to have it. I had to have it in my home, my abode, as my Spiritual feeling toward that picture was so gigantic and of such a magnitude. He informed me that there was no way that I could have that picture that it had been put in that structure upon its construction by the corporation and that there was no price could be put on it and that it could not be replaced. He knew not where it had come from but he said he could check.

A few days later I was informed that there was no one that knew where that picture had come from, that it had been somehow put on that wall and no one knew where it had come from. I asked him to again see if it could be bought at any price, I had to have that picture. Several weeks later he informed me that since that picture meant so much to me that he would check around and that he would see if it could be copied by professional studios which are in the area. During the vacant time from the time that he informed me he would do his best to check and see if it could be copied. I was presented with two eagle feathers, upon presentation of these eagle feathers I told the individuals that I appreciated them very much and that I would obtain a deep frame with a glass over it to put these two eagle feathers in and put them on the wall of my abode as I felt that I was not worthy to wear them in my hair although I do wear feathers they are not of the eagle. I have never had the honor to even possess eagle feathers let alone the honor and worthiness to wear them tied into my hair. The individuals that gave me the eagle feathers expressed their devastation in the fact that I was going to put them in a frame and not wear them. The one individual stated that her heart had dropped to the pit of her stomach, that her desire was for me to have them tied into my hair, braided into my hair and to see me watched, to see me watched as I danced with eagle feathers in my hair. I felt a great honor, I felt very humble still I felt unworthy. I was advised that we are our own worst critic and we are even more critical of ourselves than Grandfather is of us. We are more critical of ourselves than the Heavenly Council is of us. We feel an unworthiness, we feel a humbleness far greater than others feel towards us. I consented to have the eagle feathers tied into my hair although my feeling of unworthiness was still there.

A few nights later I got ready to go to bed to rest my bones, to rest my mind, to rest my body and I felt a great magnetism to come in and not to write as I had before when I was in Indian Valley many, many moons ago as I guess the Great Spirit knows that I have a problem with writing. My hands have arthritis so I was led to the stereo, a modern means of recording. I was led to this background music and I was led as to what to say as I had written things in the past spontaneously and without knowledge of what I had written until it had been written and the same prevailed of what I had put on tape. It was a prayer for a sign of my worthiness, of my value, my purpose in being a human, of being here in the valley, of having an existence here on this earth. The honor of drinking the water, the honor of breathing the air that our Creator provides for us, of taking nourishment that the Great Spirit provides for us. I made a recording, I was told to call it The Prayer by Tali.

I went into the fast food establishment and I was told by the owner/manager of that establishment that he had gone to six different professional studios in an attempt to have that picture duplicated. All six professional studios were unable to duplicate the picture, for one reason or another that picture is void of duplication, that picture cannot be made smaller, made larger, cannot be transferred. The picture is to be one of a kind. He told me of the inability of these six professionals to do the favor that he said he would attempt to do. I can only say that I was devastated, I felt in my heart, my mind, my soul and spirit that that was my Great Spirit as I would imagine him to appear if he appeared in the flesh. The next day I was given the picture in the frame with the glass cover that I months ago had been drawn to with the magnetism that I did not resist and with a magnetism that I could not have resisted. My daily crusade, my daily pilgrimage to that picture, to touch it and bow my head in reverence upon entrance and exiting that establishment. I was presented with the picture of whom I held and hold in great reverence. This I feel is my gift of love, my blessing, my sign that I have prayed for in the tape that is known as The Prayer.

A few days later I had the eagle feathers which had been wrapped, I had the eagle feathers, the two eagle feathers denoting the eagle, the Spiritual and Sacred Eagle, the two eagle feathers denoting my name given to me by the Heavenly Council, Tali Ugidatli, Two Feathers. I had them tied into my hair, I felt worthy although humble, very humble, I felt worthy, I felt worthy to have in my possession though I cannot use the word own because they do not belong to me, they still belong to the Great Spirit. They are only on loan to me to enjoy and to feel their wonder and warmth. Those two eagle feathers danced with me to the beat of the drum, those two eagle feathers danced with me, with the Spirit, with the Spirits of Grandfather, the Holy Men, the Medicine Men, the Great Warriors who have gone before us who reside in the Heavenly Council, the Heavenly Lodge in their presence. I am so honored, I feel a worthiness, a value now that I have never felt in my lifetime. I feel that this is the Blessing that I have longed for all my conscious life. I understand now and I accept now why I came down from the mountains, from the forest away from my brothers and sisters which are not lost. I go up from time to time to look upon the mountains, the gracious mighty mountains of granite and marble to watch the river in its downward flow to the ocean, look through the trees, look to the tips of the great cedar, of the great pine, the redwoods touching the heavens with their tips, look into the sky to look towards the Heavenly Lodge. I go to the mountains and visit my brothers and sisters, I can feel their presence, I can see their presence, I can see where they have walked nocturnally. I can feel them walking beside me. I can feel them say Welcome Tali, welcome back to the forest and the mountains. We realize that you have a job, that you have a value in the valley with the humans to do as much for the humans, to save them from extinction. We realize that this time you cannot come back to live among us. We love you Tali and I say I love you my people, my brothers and sisters, the creatures of the forest, the creatures of the ground, of the air, of the water. Maybe someday I will live in a place where I may feel another value and another worth.

I have in my heart and in my mind that if it is the will of the Heavenly Council to establish an Intertribal Retreat for the purpose of what our people used to refer to and many of us still do that purpose if spelled Pau-Wau. The definition of that unlike the white man's definition of Pow Wow is a gathering of the blood, of the brothers and sisters for Spiritual and Sacred purposes, in this area if I am so blessed I will request a creation of a sacred circle with the appearance of a wheel, the outward circle a ring of rock, the inner portion will be of logs or branches radiating from the center. A circle within the center of the Sacred Circle will not only represent the Circle of Life, the radiance radiating beams of Spiritual Healing will have the appearance of a spooked wheel, a wagon wheel. In the center of this Sacred Wheel will be the Sacred Fire of Oak. This wheel will have seven spokes. This wheel during the time of Sacred Spiritual Gatherings will have the Sacred Oak Fire lit in the middle, this place will be a place of Holy Reverence for our Grandfather, the Great Spirit. Our people will have someplace to come to heal the Spirit, be with the Spirit unobstructed in the ways of civilization, unobstructed from being violated in our Spiritual Religious ways. We will be able to be with ourselves, be with one another. I have received today a blessing.

(EMeNv)Amen.